Saturday, February 20, 2010

Funny Profiles

Hey guys,

I had a great time last weekend. It was CL's bday so we went to Modern Thai to met up with his friends for dinner thats was intresting. I am not really into thai food but majority of the gay people here really love thai food. I wonder is it becasue they are so open or what. I am very picky about what I eat. The only thing I like at thai food resturants is Mango and Stickyrice basically the desert haha.

Well after that we went clubbing that was fun we were way to drunk and since I pick him up we ended up sleeping the car for awhile. We party again on Sunday at Ruby Sky aka FRESH that was fun also. Than we went to Castor to Trigger I love that place hehe. Got drunk again. I can not believe so much fun hehe.

You know what I find funny on the internet, is reading profiles on gay sites. The reason they are so funny is becasue majority of it is all bullshit. Dont get me worng there are honest people on the net but not many.

I dont care about finding a boyfriend or anything anymore. If he comes he comes and no I am not waiting becasue people say that if you stop looking he will come. Its becasue I have given up on the gay world here. But when I read these profiles I laugh becasue the type of guy they like is right here. But becasue I do not have a body like these models I am atomatically out of the race. They say they dont care but we all know thats bullshit.

CL told me when he put his picture up of himself on the msn icon, a half naked pic so many people messaged him and were like long time no see and whatever. He relaized that majority of the gays here really do care about body. I have know this for a long time. I dont care at all about body and if having a body like models is the only thing between me getting a boyfriend than fuck that shit.

People need to like people for who they are not their outer shell. This is the reason why gay people are look down upon. Caring about body and the fact that not many want to be in a relationship, and I mean a monogomas relationship. There was an article about that and it said 70% of gays believe that to keep a relationship going you need to have it open sometimes.

Another funny thing is that gay people jusge way to much. CL told me that people had said I was stuck up and what not. He told them no I wasnt and that I am a sweet guy with a very nice heart. The reason for this is becasue I am being misunderstood.
The Shy Extrovert - By Jay Dixit

When someone's shy, we often assume they're introverted. Shyness often does go along with introversion–but not always. Some people who get anxious among strangers actually love being around others–whereas true introverts find people exhausting. Like other shy people, shy introverts are routinely misunderstood as cold, aloof, or stuck-up. They're particularly likely to be judged negatively if they're also attractive, says Bernie Carducci, a psychologist at Indiana University.


When I met people I am vert respectful, I bow and shake there hand. I dont really talk to much untill I feel comfortable around them. I dont see why this is bad. Majority of gay people are very open and just say hi to everyone like you are friends from long ago but that is not me at all. I think people here are just way to libral for me.

I also judge people to but becasue I have been so judge so much and so alone I have become an observer, well I have been on for a very longtime. And my friends have told me when it comes to reading people I have been 100% right. I need to read people see how they are before being comfortable around them. I am shy but once I get to know you I am open are if you put a drink in my hand get me drunk I can be very open. I do it for protecting and to not waste my time with fake people.

However, I dont care anymore if people like me or not. Life right now is for me to study and to have fun when I can. Can not wait to go on the LA Spring Break Trip with CL, BFF, TZ its going to be so fun.

Friday, February 12, 2010

Busy...Busy...Busy

Hey guys,

Long time...I really wish I could make a blog entry every other day. But this semster is going to be hard really busy with school. I have 5 class and had to buy 15 freaking books. This semester teachers are insane. Valetines is coming up and also Chinesse New Years.

Well for me it sucks right now, I cant eat anything Korean food, well some but since most is spicy I can not. My whole intestints can not digest anything. I went to the doctor yesterday she said I have to not eat certain foods for awhile sucks as hell. I want kimchee haha.

A lot has happend fo course. A few weeks ago I went to Castro with LC it was fun. CAFE is the best. Dragon is gettinng so old. However I did go to Dragon last friday it was really pack and there was inprovement in the quality of guys haha. But the place itself is ugly. I feel like its one of the old bars back in Asia in the hiden section.

I know I said that I was going to stop partyinng but its hard. But sinceI figure out a way to study at school so that I can party on the weekend. So Monday-Thursday Im at school from 10AM - 8:30PM. Some of the class are very intresting. And some of theacers are funny even though they made us students get many books.

My Class:
GEOG 115 - Population and Global Change
GEOG 121 - Global Economy
HUM 100W - Writing for the Hummanties
CHIN 1A - Chinesse Elemntary (Manderian)
AISA 70B - Eastern Religion

Well I have change a lot. I dont care anymore about finding a guy anymore, of course I still like LC but having him as a really close friend, its awsome. So the fact that we will never be like lovers is ok for me. Becasue I will be going back to Korea but even there I never cared about having a BF or anything. So here is nothing to me anymore. Im going to finsh school. These past few weeks I just want to have fun. But dont get me worng I will not sleep around.

Well later guys I hope you have a great weekend.