I had enough

Hi guys,

Well heres another say story to put in this blog. If any of you read my previouse post you will know what I am talking about but if you dont sorry that you might be lost.

Well we all know I like CL but there was this guy in December that I dated. Was trying to get over CL becasue I knew there would not be any chance with me and him. This guy I saw him for 4 weeks, he said he was not ready for a relationship and that he has to deal with himself first before he could get in one. Well I know that is all lies. I like how this happend after I gave him what he wanted. He took my 2 years and half virginty. The sad thing is i could have like the guy.

Know I know I need to becareful what peoplel say. He said all the things he woudl always complement me, say how perfect I am and so on. The sad thing is that the guy he is dating is one of my close friends. WEll I thought. I am sorry but I would never date any of my close friends crushs, guys they have dated, or had something with. That is wrong in my book. I am starting to think that is commmon in the gay world here. I ask my Korean friends they would not do that to their close friends.

I am really sick of this gay world. I wounder if I still have those people who used to read my old blog read this one. So much bad stuff happens to me.
For new readers, if you want to know more read "Past dates & Guys I liked" (8/3/09). It just seem to be a pattern guys I like ended up liking my friend or dont like me at all, or my friends like the guy I like. I know I am FUCKING KOREAN BUT I DONT WANT TO BE IN A FUCKING KOREAN DRAMA ANYMORE. I have given up on the gay world now, I am going to be a bitter mean ass bitch. I dopnt care anymore about people, friends, school, anything. Fuck life.

LA TRIP

Hey Guys,

My spring break was last week, which was so boring. All I did was stay home, however I did go to LA this past week with CL and LM. We drove down there which was nice. I got to see nice parts of cailfronia. It was really pretty.


So that friday we went to Rage aka GameBoi which was ok. To many little kids. After it ended we went to Mickeys. CL is so wierd some times. Like he tooks some drugs which I got mad at him for. He try to put his arm around my shoulderI would move away. He than was like I dont want to go now. Meimei is mad at me. Kinda of wierd we are just friends. I ended up takeing a few candies. SO I let it go.

The Next day we went to Santa Monica for shopping. It was ok the style down there is not my style at all. We went to eat Korean Tofu, I pretended to be mad at CL and he was like I dont want to go clubbing now because someone is mad at me and doesnt want me around them anymore. I love pissing him off. HAHA Than we went to Reflexs I believe. I took one candy because I didnt get drunk enough. CL found out and was like ok I can take some too. He did and in the club we dance for a bit. And he said to me meimei I love you. I told him I love him too.

While in this club, really after party, a Korean guy was trying to hit on my friend so cute hehe, and the Korean guys friend came up to me and ask me if I was Korean(He is also Korean), we introduce eachother he gave me a kiss on the cheek. This guy was hot too. He was tall, nice body, a little facial hair. He reminded me of this Korena actor. Then when he was going home he came to his friend gave him a hug, gave CL a hug, than he grab my head and kiss me on the lips, he had nice lips. HEHE. To bad the guy has a bf. I was so shock since nothing like that has ever happend to me. I do plan on go to LA again even thought they are rude bitches, but the party sence down there is better than the SF sence.

I have a probelem with the LA gays though. I thought SF area were stuck up bitches but compare to LA gays, nothing in comparsion. At least in the SF when people try to pass you in the club the put the hand on your shoulder or say exusse me, where as in La the freaking push you out the way. I was like oh hell no. Rude as mother fuckers. The way they walk is to much flame. There were not many male acting ones but there are a lot of young gay guys down there.

Me and CL have deceide to quite the drugs. No more smoking either. We are going to be good bois. SO wish us good luck. Drugs are esay to stop but smoking is hard. Ciggrites are so good.