Well I went to pride it was fun, Firday night i went to dragon however i threw up to much drinking. Never mix soju and other drinks togther. If you going to start drinking soju stay with it dont change another drink.
Than on saturday i went to colossus that was fun also. However I was alone again. CL was hangout with his ex who he used to love,and ZT was with his date. And I was alone. The shandong guy doesnt go to any of things. I took to many candy about 5 in such a short time. I wanted to have fun so thats why I took so many never going to that again.Sunday we went to the beach we didnt get to see the prade its ok. The beach was nice however I was alone once again on the beach everyone had someone except for me. I swear my life is so boring.
CL doesnt understand why I am moody or the way I am. Come on someone who doesnt have a date never a bf and is aournd people who seem to have someone and kissing, how do you think someone who is alone is going to feel. I know now he will never understand me.
The shandong guy is so retared. I ask him why he thinks Im cute and why he likes me and he say I will let u know in year if we are still together. I can read between the lines he just wants sex. So I am not going to deal with that guy anymore. I think the reason why I am is becasue CL was my last hope. I had said this before in many blogs. But he was my last hope and since it will never happend between me and him. I have given up on the gay world. I think thats why I can be with the shandong guy. I had like CL for a whole year. Its not easy for me to stop liking someone or liking someone new when I already like someone. Of course i dont like CL anymore becasue I have came to terms about the future between us, so just being good friends is good enough, however, he was my last hope.
I read this blog on downelink it was very intresting to read but very truthful. I wish my friends could understand this but they dont.
He's Out of His League 2 by:Downlink Member
Someone said that “If someone you love and loves you, they’ll love you for who you are, not how you look”. YES that’s an ideal way to perceive things. God knows I wish that were the whole story, but it’s not. I wanted to stop and write this blog for you guys before I get back out there.
So instead of explaining my theory, why don’t I just ask someone I was seeing to test if looks and love go hand in hand. He was good looking, buff, and a nice guy. A good candidate for this experiment:
Tony: Hey can I ask you a question
X: Yea sure
Tony: So if I had been out of shape back then, would you have gone out with me haha
X: Like if you were unattractive or chunky? Yea, it’s your personality that matters, and you always made me laugh. (A nice answer, but NOT the whole story)
Tony: You know how we have that pact to be honest, well that applies regardless if we’re together or not. Now really think about it. You go to the gym every day, you go for a reason. You’d really be with me even if I wasn’t in shape? Give me the answer I’m going to be needing from you
X: Hmm. You really want to know.
Tony: Yup, only the truth, the real deal answer. No sugar coating about life, we don’t do that.
X: I guess IF you hadn’t looked the way you looked, then I guess you being funny or interesting wouldn’t have mattered. You being in shape, made us fit together more. If I had been hotter than you, then there would be no way people would have felt we were a match. My friends would have commented against it. We would have gone nowhere. Imagine how cruel it would have been to let you watch me get hit on, while you would be standing in the backseat at parties or clubs.
X: So why are you asking about this hypothetical.
Tony: Its cause I wanted to show that even with a nice guy like you whose good looking, the rules still apply. I wanted to get it straight from the horse’s mouth.
X: Then I hope I was helpful. It’s unfortunate but I have to say that how we look, definitely affects who we love or get to love.
Anyways, I know some of you might like this, some of you might not like this. But I feel as though, it is important to remind you of the truth, not of what’s ideal, but what’s realistic.
So when someone tells me, “That person will love you for who you are, and not how you look”. That’s because you have to take into consideration that that person isn’t out of your league, that’s why you’re their match, and that is why they love you, because they accept that your looks match their standard requirement and then allows them to focus your personality.
If I am wrong about my assessment, and you disagree, then I’m glad. Cause you live in a much easy going world than I do. Live there as long as you can and I wish you the best.
When it comes to me I usally endup liking FOBS, probally because I am one too even though I look like something else. But its there personality not thier body becasue the people I like they usally are different types of body. Auctaully I never liked a guy who had a body like the guys I put up on my blog just normal avareage guys. I am going to try to work hard on my body so I can get in the league of these gay people. And fuck with thier minds let them feel how it feels to be in pain. Like they say what goes around comes around.
