Many things in just two weeks

Hey guys,

Sorry for the really long wait for the new post. I have been really busy with school my bday and friends birthday. I do not seem to have enough time for anything except time for jacking off haha.


Well on the 16th which was a friday I got really drunked a lot more drunked than usally since my bday was coming up. I had a great time with friends, but when I got home I got really emo. And I had an argument with my step father saying who gives a shit that Obama is president. The world and in America still has racist people. Just becasue he so called black by most people( which pisses me off) there are still areas in America that dont except it even in the lovely gay community.

The gay community seems to be all about equality off everyone, but when it comes to thier sex partners or one night stands they dont look for whats inside but only whats outside. For me even if I were to do a one night stand it should be with someone I can have some kinda of emotion. There is lust, friends with benfits, love making but the all posses a emotion. So for me I would want to know that person before anytype of one night stand.

This of course is what I really wanted to tell my step father and my mother but did not. They really do not kwow whats going on with me. My mom ended up crying that night forcing me to drink water holding me in the bed saying all she wants is for me to be happy. What a good start on my bday weekend.

Than Sunday we had dinner at some Italian resturrant which suck by the way. My best friend pick it. I dont blame him, he found it and he saw it was a 4 star resturant but I think it was only becasue it was a nice place. Than went to Trigger near Castro for clubbing got really wasted again. I was not emo untill the end.

I got emo because a guy that I like before Mr. C.P was playing around saying I am his ex he grab me and than kiss me on the lips. After that he took my hand we went outside and we talk. He said something about how he would have dated me if there was no drama between one of my friends and this other guy.And he kept on holding me and hugging me. After that he need to go I statred to cry. Becasue I was just like what the hell. Then I finally went back in and this guy F.B kept toouching my ass. He is so freaking cute haha.

For any of you new people, I do not get guys at all, ones I like end up liking my bff, or they move to China and than say they like me, or my friend ends up liking him. So I cried becasue this seems to be a recyling way of life for me in the gay world here.

So Yeah I was happy that I was with friends, just not the gay bicths here in the bay area.
Than on Tuesday I met up with F.H which was his bday. We went bowling well they did I just wacth. I just kept making fun of F.B hehe.

Than Friday the 23th went to dragon again and went clubbing with friends. That was intresting. Than on saturday we celebrated F.H bday at a friends house. I got way to drunk but my bff pick me up and we went to End up in SF near 280 exit in Sf I believe. Great place. I drop for the second time and finally got high for the first time haha. I was so wild. But I was with F.B the whole night flirting with him and made a new gay Korean hyung(big bro). I finally had a good weekend.

Well this is a lot of cathing up so much stuff that happend. I am just goinng to have fun flirt with people and so on. No one night stands but just having fun. Of course I will have spills here and there and be emo but usally when I am drunk I am happy as long as you dont hit the button of sadness and bring back old emotions. Its like people can have fun drinking as long as you do not brinng up religion or politics than a fights going to happen.

Time is so Short

Hey guys,

Well I have been pretty busy lately. Midterms are over of course still waiting for 2 other test scores. I hope I did good on them. Life has been very wierd for me lately. My dong sang the guy I talk about in the last previous blogs is gone. The funny thing is I didnt cry. I think becasue it didnt hit me yet. Its one of those thiings that you still dont believe.

Beside that I have been trying to live my life happy since I will be here for awhile. I forgot if I mention that I might be going back to Korea next fall. I talk to my major adviosr and he said that most of the class that I took at Mission College count for many of the major course that need to be taken so all I have is left is electives which is good. the funny thing is that I just transfered there this fall.

So becasue all I have electives left I will go back to Korea as a exchange student get the course from there than sign up for my masters there. Than I still can have a degree from US and get a good job in Korea. I knwo a lot of people are pissed becasue I am using the US system but I tried to find a guy here they gay world here is to cruel so I need to leave. This country is not the place for me. So dont be mad becasue I knwo some good American people who moved to Europe becasue there life here was not good here too. Just becasue you are born somewhere doesnt mean thats your true home some find thier new home in another state or country. Life is different than in the past.

Well My bday is coming up soon, this Sunday at 7pm. So I will have a special blog for you guys.

Later.

TO MY FAVE. DONG SANG...Get well Please

Hey guys,

Well I did go to the club on friday. It was just me and my BFF went up to the city. Met some of our friends there. It was ok it seem to be new people there for some reason. There was some decent looking ones.I was was really wasted, probally since I have not gotton drunk for awhile.

While I was clubbing, one of my dongsangs the one I was talking about on Friday's blog got into a motercyle accident. He is is the hospital. I am really sad right now,and worry about him. If any of you saw Sailor moon hes is like her but worst, he seems to get hurt a lot. It not a good thing he is young and needs to live a long life.

So yesterday I was not really in the mood and still today not in a really good mood. I can not stop thinking about him. His little borther told me everything. Hes a wake now but still I worry. I am like a mother sometimes I really care about the poeple who come in to my life and I worry about them even if they use me or dont care care about me.Thats why I get used a lot. I cant say no and I have a heart like a women. I am just like mom.

SO If you guys can pray if your religous or just hope the best for him that would help. You may not knwo him but, no one derseves to die or get hurt like that. I woudl never wish anything like that on anyone not even Hitler.

I hope everyone else is doing ok at least and that no one got hurt or knew someone who got hurt. Have a great Sunday guys. And to my dong sang please get well fast. Heal up. I wish I was there to be by your side right now. I love you man.

Midterms and Realization

Hey guys,

Well I am goinng to make my blog more me, so I will put up hot people that or guys and grls. No I am not Bi but there are some sey girls out there haha, who I would go streight for haha.

This week was all midterms I have one more left on wed. I hope I do good. Yesterday midterms were kind of wierd. For my Global Soceity class he did not give any review so know really knew what was going to be on the midterm. We had a review day all he said was bring pen and pencil that is it. Than he siad any questions, people just ask about the readings after 15 mins of class everyone just left.

The Asian Philosophy one was easy. He gave a review I was up for like 3 hours reviewing it and when I took it, it only had 5 true/false, 5 muiltuple choice and one essay question it was pretty easy more than the review.

Well I have been kinda of sad lately, I know most of my readings are sad haha, but I met this Korean guy a few weeks ago. I still like C.L but siince hes not here and he does not know if he will come back or not I thought I should just met people and make friends. So this Korean guy who came to the states when he was like 5 I think. He said that I am cute on line and in person. The reason I am sad is becasue the guy is everything I like in a guy hes normal. I do not like the guy becasue he has a boyfriend and they are in a open relationship. But I am sad becasue the fact that a guy who thinks I am cute, have simliarties and we hit it of on the first met, is a guy I can not have. Kind of sad.

I have been talking to my dongsang(lil bro not real brother) back in Korea for the past few weeks, hes nice guy. He wants me to be happy and stop being sad. He knows I am gay but does not care. And he reads my blog from time to time to see how I am doing. I wish I could be in a relationship with him. Hes tying to make me feel good but the sad thing is that I am statrting to like him. Yeah I like two people at the same time really sad. He is just like the Korean guy I met a few weeks ago everything that I want in my man, just this guy is streight. Even though he is not gay he wants to protect me from all the bad things.

You know I took a online quiz at facebook, yeah they are not real test, but it was a test of what Asian is right for you, I got Korean. I am starting to think that I can only date my own people. I mean Chinese peopel love me as a friend but they dont see me in that way. I always found Chinese guys hotter than Korean. My list was Chinese, Japanese, than Korean. in the way of hottness but what ever. My frist date was with a Korean guy, My frist relaiosnhip with a Korean guy, gays that think im cute Korean guys. But most Gay Koreans here in America do not really date other Koreans.

Later.