Why get a Tattoo!

Hey guys,

A lot of people wondering why I would get a tattoo of a tiger looking like Korea. Some people think its because of the Korean Pride that gets out of hand. No its not the answer.

The reason for it is because Korea is my homeland, even though I lived in the US for middle and high school Korea is where I was born and who I am. I have to respect that. But this is not the main reason and is only like 5% of the reason.

The main reason is because when I was about 7 or 8 can not really remember, I was rape by 5 high school boys back in Korea before I came to the United States. They rape me and said I was the most ugliest Korean ever.

When I came to America I didn't have any Korean friends. So going through a rough time I had no one to talk to about the changes or the problems I was going through. Most of the Koreans that came here did not want to consider me Korean. Also the Korean Americans did not want to believe I was Korean especially the gay ones. Also the Asian who are really white wash, think I am black or Mexican. Not trying to be racist but that really offends me. Like one of my friends brought his black friend to hang out with us because he thinks I'm part black, but the black guy said no I am not. The reason this hurts me is because black and Mexicans are look down upon. Yes there are blacks and Mexicans who are doctors and lawyers but the stereotype of what the world has of them is bad, and I do not want to be put in that stereotype.

This hurts me a lot. I am proud to be Korean and also proud to be 25%Polish, but I know nothing of my Polish side all I knwo is my Korean side. So this tattoo is for me to be proud of who I am. It is also to prove to others that even though I may not look like Won-bin or a half good looking Korean actor, I am Korean. I will get a Polish type tattoo when I find something that is really nice.

The funny thing is that when I went back to Korea for college a lot of Koreans just consider me Korean. They would say don't even say your 25% Polish your more Korean born in Korean and so on. I think with age comes maturity and more understanding. But here in American still today I get this negative stuff from people. It really hurts when people can see you for who you really are.

Even though Korea is still a conservative country that is opening the minds, eyes and ears. I feel that the United States still has a lot to go trough. Discrimination still goes through the US and most of through the gay world. Yes the gay world is about equality, however, there is this thing on people profile that say preferences. And to me that seem more discriminative than racism.

EX: Must be white, tone or muscle body only etc. And no not on sex sites. Even on sites where you try to find love.

Because a big majority of gay people think like this, my gay life is very boring. I am not the typical Korean or Asian boy that gays want. That is why I have no confidence or feel good about myself. I used to have a lot of gay people say, take your picture of the internet because you are the ugliest person they seen. But enough of this ranting.

I did go clubbing today. I was bored did not want to stay home but I did not get drunk, all I did was sit and wacth my friends have fun. Maybe I am getting old haha. I turn 24 next month.