Gay Pride This Weekend

Hey guys,

Its been a while since I have worte in here. Not much is happing in my life except for lots of partying with CL and ZT hehe. This weekend is Gay pride weekend. Which will be my fist pride. I am going to dragon on friday, Colossus on Saturday and I hope the prade on Sunday. So much partying.

Well right now I have been seeing this Shandong guy he is really nice but a freak in the bed haha. He is 6'1, 24, and hes very smart. The funny thing is that hes not in the gay world at all like I am. I ask him you dont go clubbing and you dont have gay friends, so, why you date me. He said its ok. He says hes str8 guy and that im cute and like a girl. Why does everyone say that. I act like a typical asian guy from asia. But my mentality is like a girl. I want to be there for my man.

However I wasnt really there for him on the weekend last week or this week. He was like you spend time with your friends more than me. But I had all this plan out like amonth ago. Last weekend I went river rafting near Cash Creek, it was nice. So I couldnt hangout with him. I was like I am sorry but I already promise my friends. The sad thing is a treat my friends better than my bfs. Plus I dont want to get to close to this guy. Just in case hes one of those looser who just want sex. I am not going to deal with any more gay bullshit. So taking my time and not getting a lot of emotion invloved.

No More

Hey guys,

My life is doing ok. Nice summer break finally the weather is nice to go out and do something. I hope everyone is doing good in this lovely summer season. Well I have been hanging out with my friends every weekend about. Been trying to have fun. this Weekend is JieJies(TZ) bday. My friendship with CL is good. His name kind of sounds like a perfume haha. I just relized that.

This month is Gay month. I hope to go to Pride this year didnt get to go to pride last year. I need to go to one. Maybe I will see different about gay people.

Well I said before I had given up on LOVE and I have. I dont care about LOVE as much as I want to feel love again. I know that when it comes to the gay world, it doesnt exist. It exist for some but not all. Becasue in gay relationships there a lot of these open realtionship or ones were guys bring in a 3rd once inawhile, what they like to call spice up the relationship. Me I can not do that, so since I cant I will just be proud to have my hand with me haha.

I think to mcuh about stuff girl thinks about, Im also trying to chnage that. I feel like if I dont I wont have any friends anymore. Jiejie and GeGe could end up forgeting about me and stop dealing with me. I wish my biggest fear was not being alone. And I dont mean by lover but being alone with out friends and no one. I hate that more than ever. but enough of this drama, this weekend at jiejies bday Im going to try to be open and a good boi no drama.

Wish me all luck.