Sunday, May 16, 2010

Final Week

hey guys,

Well I just finshed my last research paper. Tommrow I will turn it in and take my Eastern Religion in class essay. Wed I have my Global Economy class, chinese Final, friday turn in the take home essay part of my Eastern Religon class. Than on monday I will have my population climate change class presentation. AFter that I will be done for this smester. Thank god. I hope to have a nice summer break with friends.

After finshed my paper I finshed wacthing an ep. of Tori and Dean, where Tori did her friends wedding. I cried becasue I will never have one. Even if gays are allowed to get married with my track record with guys it will never happend.

I am just like a gril no wounder CL calls me meimei and that I woudl be a great house wife. He said that when we spent the night at TZ house. I cleaned his place. And CL was like you will make your boyfriend happy. But I will never be able to this.

I am to much like a girl. Iv always had a nanny when I grew up. I stop having a nanny when I was 14. I alwasy been around women so the way I think and my emotions are really like a gril.

One of my friend said I shoudl stop seeing wacthing dramas since its always about love and I wont cry. but just like Charmed, Piper went through so much to be with Leo. So no matter what you wacth a love like situation is going to be in a show. the only thing out there that doesnt have sad love stuff is porn, cartoons, and some relity shows.

I think the reason why I cried on this ep, is because that guy I dated text me saying " Hi Jun, I know you hate me, but I would like to apolodies for alll the errors I have done. thannk you :D" Yes he put a smile at the end of it. I have given up on man. In this gay world (bay area) I can not find what I want or will ever get what I want. Now I know why on most gay personal sites they have a question there asking would you be willing to move for your love.

I was talking to person I met through TZ,he is MG. He is a smart nice kid. He was telling ma that where he is right now, there is not that many drama there in the gay world. Why do Bay Area gays and LA gays have to be this way. Why can they not be so slutty bicthy. I feel a lot of the gays here are missing out on something that woudl make them feel good. I find it funny most gays love thier mom to death and woudl do anything for them yet they love to be like str8 guys in their mid live crsis.

Monday, May 10, 2010

Almost over

Dear Readers,

Sorry for the long wait for a new post, some of you are porbally wondering whats been happening in this boys life. I have been so busy with school since its towards the end of the month. I had a research paper due on April 28 and a midterm in that same class. I did so bad on the midterm but good on the paper. Teacher is so messed up wanted a big paper and midterm on the same day. I mean I like the class world of the eocnomy, its fun but dam.

Just finshed my last big research paper for my Population and climate change class that was also hard. I want to die. I just ended up rewording everying. I cant belive I turn it in and got no high light s of plagrism. Now I just have one paper left which is 4-5 pages so not so bad. Study for Chinese and my Eastern Religon class and The World of the economy my other two class dont have finals. The eastern religion one is a take home final I love those.

Well one of my ex friends MF is out of my life. God I hate him. I hear so much stuff about him, its funny. Hes a size queen and he is very bias. I know some people think I am racist or bias but nothing like him. He thinks that only Asian are good looking and that other races are ugly. For me I am very picky about other races but there are a few preety and hoties out there in those races. this kid is 22 but acts like 16 year old so sad. But now I know why he was always that way to me. Becasue I am 75 Kroean and dont look it he would always make me feel and look bad. why kind of friend is like that. I no longer have a school friend to hang out when I am bored or bff anymore but I still have CL and my one friend at school CC who can only hang out once inawhile. At least there are some good people left.

Well nothing else is happing in my life so I dod not know what to write sorry guys. I know you want something to read.