Final Week

hey guys,

Well I just finshed my last research paper. Tommrow I will turn it in and take my Eastern Religion in class essay. Wed I have my Global Economy class, chinese Final, friday turn in the take home essay part of my Eastern Religon class. Than on monday I will have my population climate change class presentation. AFter that I will be done for this smester. Thank god. I hope to have a nice summer break with friends.

After finshed my paper I finshed wacthing an ep. of Tori and Dean, where Tori did her friends wedding. I cried becasue I will never have one. Even if gays are allowed to get married with my track record with guys it will never happend.

I am just like a gril no wounder CL calls me meimei and that I woudl be a great house wife. He said that when we spent the night at TZ house. I cleaned his place. And CL was like you will make your boyfriend happy. But I will never be able to this.

I am to much like a girl. Iv always had a nanny when I grew up. I stop having a nanny when I was 14. I alwasy been around women so the way I think and my emotions are really like a gril.

One of my friend said I shoudl stop seeing wacthing dramas since its always about love and I wont cry. but just like Charmed, Piper went through so much to be with Leo. So no matter what you wacth a love like situation is going to be in a show. the only thing out there that doesnt have sad love stuff is porn, cartoons, and some relity shows.

I think the reason why I cried on this ep, is because that guy I dated text me saying " Hi Jun, I know you hate me, but I would like to apolodies for alll the errors I have done. thannk you :D" Yes he put a smile at the end of it. I have given up on man. In this gay world (bay area) I can not find what I want or will ever get what I want. Now I know why on most gay personal sites they have a question there asking would you be willing to move for your love.

I was talking to person I met through TZ,he is MG. He is a smart nice kid. He was telling ma that where he is right now, there is not that many drama there in the gay world. Why do Bay Area gays and LA gays have to be this way. Why can they not be so slutty bicthy. I feel a lot of the gays here are missing out on something that woudl make them feel good. I find it funny most gays love thier mom to death and woudl do anything for them yet they love to be like str8 guys in their mid live crsis.